HELLO.
"Contrariwise," continued Tweedledee, "if it was so, it might be; and if it were so, it would be; but as it isn't, it ain't. That's logic." Through the Looking-Glass; Lewis Carroll
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Through the Looking-Glass; Lewis Carroll |
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Monday, December 08, 2008, 12:15 AM
Honestly, I'm not angry at anyone. I'm not blaming anyone, cos it was no one's fault. I just feel pissed that I'm left out again. I don't hate any of you because you guys did not want this to happen either. But the whole self-castigating thing makes me feel worse. It's not your fault I didn't get in, it's just that stupid feeling of being left out. For some strange reason I feel almost backstabbed, but truly it would be less than rational to point the finger at either of you and blame you, cos it's not like you went up there and snatched the job away or anything. It's just that my stupid circumstances make me pretty much un-hire-able at the moment. So at the moment, I'm not in any sort of mood to talk about this cos I need to mellow down. And if you launch into the whole corporal mortification outfit again I might just decapitate you myself. But no hard feelings - I mean, despite whatever crap this situation entails you are my friends, and that's what counts to the end. So stop the self-flagellating, cos it's really no one's fault. And I'm not in any mood to be a saint at the moment. I mean, I am masochistic to some extent (being a perfectionist and all) but I'm not some sadist. Go and work and have fun, and learn from the experience. I'll find some way to mope for the remaining three weeks. I'll just have to make rotting away and stagnating feel more tolerable. |