HELLO.
"Contrariwise," continued Tweedledee, "if it was so, it might be; and if it were so, it would be; but as it isn't, it ain't. That's logic." Through the Looking-Glass; Lewis Carroll
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Through the Looking-Glass; Lewis Carroll |
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Monday, January 04, 2010, 12:35 AM
OH AND THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE SOME TRASHED UP DESPERADO WHICH I TRULY MIGHT AS WELL BE COS I'VE BEEN HANGING ON SO LONG UNABLE TO LET GO WITH NO EFFING ONE TO TURN TO AND COS I CAN'T JUST DROP YOU AND PRETEND YOU NEVER DID EXIST COS I KEEP ASKING MYSELF WHY YOU KEEP APPEARING THERE IN MY HEAD OVER AND OVER AND WHY CAN'T I EFFING FORGET YOU AND GET ON WITH MY LIFE I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS POINTLESS DRAMA AND PRETENDING TO BE SOMEONE I'M NOT IN THE FACE OF THE IMPOSSIBLE AND HATING MYSELF COS OF IT AND THE WORST THING IS YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW AND IT WOULDN'T BE IN YOUR PLACE TO CARE AND IT'S MY ENTIRE FAULT I CAN'T SAY GOODBYE COS IN MY HEAD TWO VERSIONS OF YOU KEEP CANCELLING EACH OTHER OUT AND REAPPEARING- THE REASONABLE, SENSIBLE, LOVING ONE AND THE ONE EVERYONE ELSE SEES YOU FOR AND I KNOW YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE FIRST TRIED TO CONVINCE MYSELF FAILED HORRIBLY HATE MYSELF FOR THAT FOR ALWAYS AND WHAT'S THE POINT OF GETTING MYSELF SO TANGLED UP WHEN MY LIFE IS SCREWED UP AS IT IS ALREADY. NOW I'VE GOTTEN TO A STAGE WHEN I CAN'T EVEN THINK OF YOU THE SAME WAY I COULD BEFORE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY AND NOW I'M AFRAID THAT SOMEDAY I'LL HAVE TO DESTROY YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL COS I'LL JUST NO LONGER BE ABLE TO THINK OF YOU LIKE I DID BEFORE AND IT'LL JUST DRIVE ME OVER THE EDGE. POINT BEING I DON'T KNOW WHY THE FUCK I'M GETTING SO WORKED UP AND SO JEALOUS COS OF THIS AND WHY YOU TURN OUT TO BE THE REASON I'M GETTING WORSE AND WORSE THOUGH I KNOW I'VE GOT TO EFFING STOP BLOODY ALREADY. WHAT THE FUCK. SO IT'S TRUE HUH. I REALLY REALLY DO NEED TO GET A LIFE. WELL YOU KNOW WHAT. I'LL DO BETTER. I'LL SHOW YOU. |